Aprile 2, 2014 EcoAnemia
Discrimination and Disappointment
Dear Ed,
well, about my response to Pk-4 I’ve used during years many ideas and variant (and with White I often played the same), and I always tried to take the initiative and not only equalizing for a draw.
But about the particular matter, I stopped playing tournaments simply because I was tired of receiving insults and boos when I had won a tournament : for example, once time during the award ceremony of the championship of my city (Milan) the organizers and the public had applauded the player who won the second prize, and refused to hand me the winner’s trophy simply placing it on the table without any handshaking (among other things , violating the international rules of fair play).
But this was only one of many unpleasant facts I’ve seen for years.
And when later I’ve started a career as a trainer , after a few months I had created a chess-school composed of thirty children (from nothing), the same happened : my “friends” of the club did their best for distrupting and destroying my initiative ; and they have succeeded, unfortunately for me.
Clearly for me it was a great delusion, but now I think that all what happened was simply unavoidable.
Now I have absolutely no regrets, even if I like playing chess the same.
About my feelings of disappointment : it’s harder to crack prejudice than an atom (as Albert Einstein said many years ago), and so I had only to accept the situation and also removing from me the state of tension and general discomfort .
I know very well this feeling is the reason of the problems I have now .
You tell : “When a feeling dissolve , it ceaese to be your enemy and begins to be one of your allies”.
Yes , I know very well that when my disappointment decrease, my life becomes better and results in trading the same.
A woman italian poet of the Renaissance (Veronica Franco) has written in 1585 :
“When we too are armed and trained, we can convince men that we have hands, feet, and a heart like yours; and although we may be delicate and soft, some men who are delicate are also strong; and others, coarse and harsh, are cowards.
Women have not yet realized this, for if they should decide to do so, they would be able to fight you until death; and to prove that I speak the truth, amongst so many women, I will be the first to act, setting an example for them to follow”.
Well, my intention is to act in the same way.
Wishing you all the best.
Ed’s answer :
People Typically Blame
their disappointment
on someone who discriminates.
In TTP we see how disappointment
can entrain discrimination.
